I can’t believe that despite being a working adult, I thought I would and should be old enough to be able to decide how I want to live my life. It’s not as if I was a druggie or a alcoholic. So what’s wrong with me working late and staying out to chill? Firstly, it’s not as if I could chill at home. Believe you me, I wish I could. NOT with my parents. My sis can and will attest to that. How CAN one chill with all that nagging and constant talking. I am not saying that one shouldn’t communicate with your parents, I am saying that there is a time and place to do certain things. certainly not nag and start the incessant grumbling the MOMENT you step into the house. Could I at LEAST put down my bag, and wash up first? no???

When I make the effort to come home EARLY, I also get nagged. I come home later (to avoid the said nagging…), I OSO bloody KENA nagged. SO HOW??

My goodness…this is not the FIRST time I am whining abt this. I rather not have to whine in the first place. And dun go telling me “Why dun u tell your parents nicely blah blah yada yada”

I DID!!!

SIAN…as if work wasn’t bad enuff…and isn’t home supposed to be a SANCTUARY?? a REFUGE??? a place of REST?????!!!

I recently concluded a bible study on the life of Caleb.

Not much is known of him, he’s certainly not as frequently mention unlike the likes of Moses or even Joshua.

He was a peer of Joshua’s, a minor character amongst men but definitely big with God.

Let me give a summary on our bible study on Caleb…

• He had a godly perspective
• He was unpopular with man
• But he looked beyond the bad things to see the good things
• Caleb had ‘God-view’ (faith) not ‘man-view’ (fear)
• Caleb looked with eyes of faith (”God CAN…”)  not with eyes of fear (”I cannot, we cannot…”)
• Fear looks at ourselves (we get overwhelmed)
• Faith looks at God (we overcome fear instead)

The question is, are we victims or victors of our circumstances? Do we trust God more or ourselves? Let us be a Caleb and put all our trust on the almighty God!

Back in 2007, when iPhone wasn’t as widespread (u see iPhones everywhere! and yet most use it to play games??!!) like Ikea is in Singapore homes, it used to elicit cool remarks and wolf whistles like it was the coolest gadget on earth. But forward to 2010, it ain’t so bells and whistles no more. Here’s why…

• No flash (both for camera and for web surfing)
• Poor camera performance
• Poor phone call quality
• No multitasking
• It’s thick
• You can’t easily transfer data files, music, videos, any files like a plug n play hard disk (despite having 32Gb)
• You cannot sync data over wifi or bluetooth (Palm was able to do that like wayyy back in 2005!)
• The bluetooth function sucks (limited bluetooth)
• no SDHC/microSDHC expansion slot to add to it
• No second camera for video calling
• iTunes tie: media content locked to specific computer, no simple drag & drop way to add files
• Limited codec support excludes likes of Ogg Vorbis audio and – crucially – AVI video so lengthy format conversion required with third party software
• Non-removeable battery so it can’t be swapped out on long journeys & requires expensive procedure to replace at an Apple store should it degrade outside the warranty

The only good thing I like about iPhone is the power of the apps…but by the virtue of being popular, there’s lots of support for the iPhone hence the numerous amount of apps available.

I’ve got an iPod Touch which is awesome except for the reasons stated above. It’s so so dumb having data files and a hard disk and not being able to use it!!

Given some time, i believe there will be more apps for the WebOS, Android, and the Blackberry to level the playing field.

Granted I am a bit stressed at work due to backlogs and new & bigger mountains to climb at work…I still am not depressed (yet) and I think I am getting on top of things and finally can see some improvements. I now can see myself closing loops faster and find it more manageable (though not entirely near achieving near GTD).

But I still find myself more stressed and falling sick more often. Perhaps it could be the heat, perhaps it could be the flu bug. I am eating healthier than most people, exercising more than the average working adult. So what could be it?

I just came back from seeing the doc, the moment I stepped back in the house, my mum starts nagging (not the first time, and certainly not the second time…hence I say “nag”). I swear, perhaps I get more ‘rest’ at work than at home!

Nobody likes to be told what to do, esp when you are told something that you wouldn’t expect for an adult to be chided about.

sigh…makes u feel so silly. Ashamed and pai-seh is the word. Esp when you know that you have that problem and you’ve been making efforts to improve and just when you thot you did, someone has to pour ‘cold water’ on ya.

such is life…

Woohoo!Cult films from my era are back! BIGGER and BETTER than before! I’m tokking abt remakes of old movies that used to be cool back in the days where I still wear shorts to school.

These films may not be huge names like Star Wars or Superman but they are cool then. Maybe some of you recognise these names…Tron, and Clash of the Titans.

Tron - The movie with special effects that feature super cool computer generated images in 1980s. That famous bike scene.

The old

And the 2010 update…

Clash of the Titans - a 1981 fantasy adventure film based on the myth of Perseus. It was released on June 12, 1981 and was a box office hit. (source: wikipedia)

The old

And the new…

Can’t wait!

I’ve been getting comments that I am a very busy person and “very hard to get you leh”

I mean, can I not be uncontactable (for a short while)? Can I not be busy at work? Is that a crime?

It’s not as if I LIKE to NOT reply my personal emails or phone calls or sms BUT I AM REALLY BUSY.

I know I don’t earn big bucks nor run a BIG organisation. BUT that doesn’t disqualify me the right to be called busy no?

I remember I used to pride myself for replying my emails real fast and clearing them within a day. But that’s eons ago…back in the days when I still wear berms and tees everyday to uni.

hmmph

AS much as i like to stop working, I can’t. That’s life, we have to work. We do need $$ to pay bills, loans, food, etc

Why can’t people be more understanding?

I haven’t been blogging for the longest time.

mainly because of work.  and partly becuz i’m lazy? I mean, when I am busy, I would want to spend my free time just sleeping or doing my own stuff, like watching tv, surfing the net, even jogging. any activity that doesn’t require much of my brain power.

So why this post? Usually this means I have loads on my mind and something has pushed me to vomit all out so that blogging becomes more therapeutic.

As the year ended in 2009, I looked back and reflected. My main disappointments were mainly due to work. I know work ain’t everything. But a LOT hinges on work. No work, no money. No money…not much of a life issen it?

I dun hate my work. It’s more like i hate it that i cannot manage my work. I blame it on my ineffectiveness. My softheartedness. sometimes my kindness taken for granted. I just cannot bring myself to not help people. To say no. To be assertive and offending many in the process. It just doesn’t feel…very nice…

I know,  it’s something i have to work on…

And i digress…

I started the year with lots of aspirations and plans. but I am beginning to feel like a failure. I have not exercised much. I am not eating healthy most times. I still skip breakfast most days. Get overwhelmed in the morning  by emails, phone calls, requests to do this and do that. Little things. LITTLE things that ADD UP.  It’s mostly fighting fire. In the end, the things not done yesterday becomes the things STILL not done in the NEXT day!

I drive. And i am thinking most drivers in singapore are IDIOTS. Stupid people who do not realise that indicator lights exists. That they should signal their intentions. That they should keep their lanes. And NOT HOG the right lane at 60km/h on a 80km/h road!

then, to make matters worse, just when u think all that is left behind when u come home. HOME. a place supposely meant to be a place of solace. a SANCTUARY. And your own parents, instead of asking how you are, gives you grief instead. The moment u step into the apartment, questions come your way…suddenly u felt like u never left work.  IT actually feels like u just stepped in the office in the morning! Talk  abt deja vu!!

The above, if u looked at them individually, are small things. manageable. Itz when they all decide to gang up and overwhelm you that you feel totally helpless and out of control.

PLUS the other little things….insurance agents, traffic jams, overcrowded places, idiotic men who pee all over the floor, rude service staff, etc

Hope things change for the better soon. At least I haven’t reach the 80kg mark. or lost my job.

I still have a nice bed. Friends. and a little bit of health.

And I have God. He has promised that with God, ALL things are possible.

I just pray that I will not neglect Him. Coz I know He never neglects those who are called His children. We just have to remember to turn to Him always and accept His help.

 And these are my fave atm:

• Everyone is entitled to be stupid, but some abuse the privilege.
• If you think things can’t get worse it’s probably only because you lack sufficient imagination.
• A train station is where the train stops. A bus station is where the bus stops. On my desk, I have a work station…
• When I die, I want to go peacefully like my Grandfather did, in his sleep — not screaming, like the passengers in his car.
• You can’t be late until you show up.
• Knowledge is realizing that the street is one-way, wisdom is looking both directions anyway
• Parents spend the first part of our lives teaching us to walk and talk, and the rest of it telling us to sit down and shut up.

They (actually it means that i dun have a credible source) say that most successful people have goals.

And writing it down makes it clearer.

I DO want to be successful and I do have a poor memory so I am gonna use my long-neglected blog to spell it out as a reminder to self and for my friends to see (so that they too can remind me!)

Before I do that, let’s see how well I did for 2009…

I told myself that I would…

• Exercise more <-DONE!
• Climb stairs <-DONE! (I even did the vertical marathon!)
• Eat healthy<-ERM…debatable
• Two fruits a day<-started well and then FAILED miserably!
• Save coins <-DONE!
• Check bill before paying <-ok lah…can be better!
• Walk 10,000 steps <-can be better!
• Learn how to dance <-DONE!(once again thanks to Yvonne and WinNie! and also my dance partners miss green and celeste)
• Learn diving <-Thanks to my besties Liyan and Charlotte, and also to Red Scuba)
• Make more friends <-hmm…not sure…
• Play tennis at least once a month <-FAILED!
• Sleep earlier <-FAILED!
• No alcohol on work nights! <-Thanks to Cheryl dear
• Sing more<-hmmm…
• Read more <-can be much much better!

SO…looks like i did better than expected (bear in mind I only refer to this list maybe once or twice, the most THRICE)

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